Oct 25, 2009

From me to you ...

Thousands of kutti kutti fights ...
Hundreds of misunderstandings ...
Loads of possesiveness....
A few heart shattering moments ...
A little bit of ego clashes...

That sudden thought of losing it all ...

and its been three years ...

nothing seems to have changed ..

or did it ??


We survived through everything...through every bit of the joy and the pain..through each and every struggle , blows and falls ...nursing each others wounds , growing stronger day by day , sometimes hurting each other in the process ...what started off just as yet another college love story , maybe went a bit too far was what the entire world thought ...or to be frank thats what we ourselves thought but time had its own plans and got its magic woven into our lives ...

three years is a pretty long time .Lots of things changed ...

those lovely walks along the college road .....
those lovely roadside teas...
those astrology sessions at the beach..
those days when I spent the entire day cleaning my bike just because I was supposed to go out with you the next day...
those days when the wallets were empty but the hearts were full ....
those days when I rode across 20 km just to wave a single 'hi' ...
those days when the phone bills kept raising while I always felt we never spoke enough ...
those lovely afternoons where we roamed around the streets of anna nagar in search of an abandoned puppy ...
those evenings when I held your hands wishing on the sun that set across the horizon...
those nights which taught me what missing someone really meant....

and finally along with all these ....

yet another thing changed ...

......US.....

I started chasing a career , money and a few more of things which I never could decipher...In the journey that followed I made a few sacrifices , made a few choices , made a lot of blunders...

And I thought it was always for that someone ...

for that you...

but little did I know it wasnt what you wanted ....you wanted somethin else..it was not about gettin back those walks or talks ...though from heart there isnt a day that passes where I do not wish for those moments...it was more than that ...it was about the spirit ...it was about that zest for life which we both had ...that beauty which we saw in those chill zephyrs , that cold waves which splashed across our feet and that one last phone call each night....it was about the joy of living each moment ...we really did own the world though for a very small time ...and somewhere along the way we got lost admist work pressures , CTC's , careers , onsite and what not...

But at this moment , as I sit along the low parapet walls of my terrace crisscrossing my legs and savoring the hot tea with the chill breeze giving me company thanks to the cocunut trees , there is just one thing I would like to say ...

There is just one little, insignificant thing that still hasn't changed ...

"I STILL LOVE YOU ".......

13 comments:

  1. Arun, such a sensitive post from you? Never expected!
    Whatever it is, just, cheer up!

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  2. Mr,. placom.. nice da.. calm down.. good blogger.. keep rocking dude.. :)

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  3. Love the blog.... but never say love is a little insignificant thing.... cos u may be the world to one person.....

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  4. and that isn't that insignificant my friend!!! That's the best thing you have inside, in your core! Probably that's the way human mind works. To say little things which are most important in our lives, we make it look "insignificant", build a whole life around it and then whisper it silently. Cheers! :)

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  5. Hey arun.. nice one mate!!!Something I could relate too!! I know your feelings

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  6. @ananymous and shashank
    Ya true ...love is never an insignificant thing ...I had just used the word to emphasize that we all do get lost along the journey where we compromise for the other things like money , career etc...well it took me a long time to realise but nevertheless it wasn late...

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  7. @rajalakshmi
    great 2 know u could relate 2 this..I gues most of us go through this someday or the other...keep visiting ..cheers

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  8. @shruti
    thanks yaar...

    @bruce and manju
    thanks ppl ..now u guys r becomin my regular visitors...good :)

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  10. Like the way you talk about the little insignificant thing :), glad you realised, better late than never.Can relate it to my life :). good one. keep it going .

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  11. thnks abi ...good 2 see u back after a looong time !!!

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